I found out a year later that my girlfriend fooled around on me. I tried to forgive and forget but couldn't. So I had sex with three other women. Makes forgive and forget much easier to do.

I love you so much. I want to marry you some day and have a family after we have lived our lives together. I think you know how much I love you. I have dreams quite often about you asking me to marry you. I love you with all my heart, you make me so happy and I feel whole when we are together.

On The Outside I Appear To Love Everyone, However In My Heart I'll Be Glad When God Destroys Human Kind...

I divorced you to save your life. I talked mean to help you leave. I love you more than ever before, and I miss you. I am so alone.

I never told me Dad, a Catholic deacon, that I no longer believe in God. I still haven't told the rest of my family. They will be disappointed and fearful for my soul. I justify not telling them because I don't want to put them thru the trauma of thinking I am going to Hell. Because I know I won't be - there is no hell or heaven.